I dont know what to say.
Its not the first time that i’ve been debating with this issue in my heart.
Im supposedly supposed to be happy with this.
I dont know if i am.
But from the tone and queasiness and unhappiness that im feeling right now, i guess not.
You all broke your promises.
What 3 months?!
Less than 3 days lor.
Whats all that talk that you telling me its gonna stop, you cannot take it anymore, its too exaggerating etc.
What rubbish.
Going ahead all the same.
Its like all they ever talk about these days.
Nothing else.
Only this.
Forever this.
Everyday, without fail.
On the other hand, what he told me is also correct.
Im not really in the position to feel like this.
But i cannot help it!
Its like such a 1048586 degrees change!
To speak the truth, i felt disgusted by all these they are doing.
Its difficult to keep a nonchalant face to hear them talking about it and have to fakely agree with what i actually disagree.
Then what can i say?
If you are going for other stuffs, of course by all means i dont mind.
But not by the purpose of doing that what!
And i certainly hate you for bringing them to that.
Whats worse is that when im feeling bad, i’ll snap at people who talk nicely to me.
Im sorry about it and i dont mean to.
I’ve always tell myself to seperate my unhappiness from people who are not related to it.
But its like trying to pick the moon from the sky.
Im a human, filled with emotions.
What i always do is to only feel tremendous guilt over it later.
Another thing.
I love them loads.
If there are new things introduced which ive tried and i think its nice im sure to buy it for them to try.
I dont understand why he always can turn my intentions into bad stuffs.
Very hurtful you know.
Im trying to share whats nice with you all.
But you all dont appreciate.
Communication also getting lesser and lesser or should i say almost naught.
So how?
What now?
I dont know.
Judging from the prior experience, i think its best to keep my mouth shut and pretend everythings alright.
Just let me have a good cry and maybe i’ll feel better.
Pms is not really helping me much in this.
I originally only wanted to write about that.
But in the end other stuffs came resurfacing.
So i became super sad now.
Ya, im just gonna keep a straight face and shut myself out from all that rubbish.
Im not going to care anymore.
Whatever la!
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