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I didnt know how to start on this post.

Or rather how to put what i feel into words.

Fear is really enveloping real tight around me now, so much so that i might just go into ventricular fibrillation anytime.

People always say, what matters most is that you have already put in your best effort in whatever you do.

Yeah, i agree but i think people always/usually tend to concentrate on the end results more.

I worked so damn hard for the papers compared to what i did for my whole poly life. I memorised, practiced, get as much information as i can into my head.

But i seriously think and know that the end results is not going the way i wanted it to be.

I think about it so often that i i even dreamt about it – i failed all my modules in my dream nightmare.

Initially, in the first few weeks of school, i made myself a promise that i will try to attain a second upper class. But as the semester progresses, it dropped to being – i will try to attain a pass.

Yes, i really really really just hoped for a pass, nothing much more.

I think dont see a single digit on the result slip i tou xiao liao.

Holidays are coming to an end (which i enjoyed tremendously) and its now time to get back to the studying life, which i think i need 100  2 months to adapt to.

I think i have to change my studying methods.

Haiz.

Argh, its very difficult to convey what i want to say.

Shall try to live and enjoy myself as ignorantly as i can for the remaining days left and not let myself think about it every 5 minutes.

Pek chek.

Worse come to worse swallow this whole bottle of pills lor.

Ok, before you all call the police or my parents for my attempted suicide, im just kidding la, im not so crazy until like that la.

=P

Anyways, life have been pretty stagnant for me lately, which explains the lack of posts. Got nothing to blog about. Its the same routine – go on outings, run errands and laugh my ass off watching 1 Night 2 Days. Its a korean variety(?) show. I happened to find one user on youtube who subbed the many episodes that i’ve missed on channel 173. The 6 of them so funny and cute can. Go watch it if you are depressed or something, they will perk your day up!

Im always hungry and gobbled up the food before i can take it too lazy to take pictures of food nowadays and so the only picture of food that i’ve taken throughout my outings is this: 

Went for dim sum at Tung Lok with cheryl. Food and service damn good. We had other side dishes too, the tofu there – thumbs up! But i forgot whats the name of it already.

I had already also paid off my share of the dare to butt liao. The 2 of us relished the whole Haagen Dazs fondue at the Esplanade. That day, we are also the 2 emo-ing girls in the car. LOL butt!

***

I did a very stupid thing the other day. The day when i went to KFC to dabao some whipped potato and popcorn chicken for bro and myself.

At the counter

Me: Hi, can i have 2 large whipped potato and 2 regular popcorn chicken? 

(During the 1 minute the guy is packing my stuffs)

I opened my wallet, thinking i’ll get the cash out first. ALAS! Only got 1 $10 note inside! Then i looked at the cashier’s display, wanting to see how much this meal will cost – he havent key in so nothing there, then i frantically did my sums mentally. $12 plus altogether!!! Then add coins also not enough. Then i thought of using NETS but i think they dont have the service there. Just when i was panicking:

Guy: Sorry but we only have 1 large whipped potato left. For the other one i give you 4 regular ones ok?

Me: Oh its ok, i’ll just take the regular one then (feeling relieved – at first i thought he meant dont even have large ones).

Guy: I give you 2 regular ones (which equals to medium)?

Me: Its ok la the regular one will do.

Guy: Take medium la (at the same time pointing to me the price differences on the menu), more worth it.

Me: Its ok, i’ll just take the regular one.

Guy: Haha, ok.

Me: (Smiles pai seh-ly)

The guy must be thinking that im out of my mind or something. LOL. In the end, the final price still came up to $10.55 or something. I still had to dig for my 50+ cents leh. LOL. Its not that i forget to bring money out la. Its just that i forgot i dumped the cash into my bag (because im rushing on my way out earlier on) and not into my wallet and when i went to KFC, i left my bag in the car (with the mindset that i kept all cash into my wallet liao). Luckily got not enough large whipped potato and that he havent keyed in my orders yet, if not i also dont know how. Orders keyed in liao cannot cancel de right?

Heh, i even thought of going to the ATM while asking him to hold on to my food leh. Can or not ah? LOL.

So lesson learnt is that double check and make sure you have enough cash on you then place order. Hahaha. Or bring your whole bag with you. LOL.

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Im going crazy over Lee Seung Gi and Mc Mong’s songs these few days! Yea the 2 of them are part of 1 Night 2 Days too. Been ’spinning’ all of their songs on iTunes for a few days liao. So nice!

Smile Boy (Lee Seung Gi).

Wanted to find one with him in it. But that only one has a spoiled audio. Hes cute!

I love You, Oh Thank You (MC Mong, featuring Kim Tae Woo).

Nice right???

Lee Seung Gi is more on ballads, which i prefer, while Mc Mong is more on rapping/hip-hop which is not really my taste, but he a number of really nice songs which i found, that is not totally hip-hopped (like the one above). Now what i want is just to find the Lee Seung Gi and Mc Mong version of the second song for my iTunes, I can only find their version on youtube leh.

Ok, i want to catch somemore 1N2D before preparing to go out.

ByeBye!

Small Eyes Sim

(At the ICA building, level 2, passport photo taking section)

Photographer: Head tilt to the left a bit, chin down. Ok, see the camera there? Stay there. 

Me:  (Smiled my sweetest best, showing my pearlies)

(After finished taking the photo)

Photographer: Eh, i think you dont smile la, your eyes too small, cannot see.

- Call me Small Eyes Sim please -

Oh my god. I knew my eyes are small but i didnt know small until like that leh. Boohoohoo. Haha. For round 2 of photo taking of cause i got smile la, just that smile only, never show my pearlies, which resulted in me having a rounder face for the photo (than if i smiled widely).

And yes, i finally changed my passport photo, after procrastinating it for such a long time. But the new regulations are that you cannot just paste the new photo into the passport, you would have to make a new one. And so i did! Counters have no queue at all, which is good!

My new passport number wont be my NRIC number anymore.

Ok, i know thats random.

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Yipee! My parcel from overseas has arrived! I ordered a top online and i just received it pipping hot from the postman. Because its priced in USD, i thought it was from the US. But after looking at the parcel, i think it might be from Sweden. I bought only one this time round, because i want to gauge their size. Luckily, its the right size! Hehe, next time can order more pieces at a go liao, think more cost effective (because of the shipping costs). 

This one costs me my mum quite alot. Actually i found cheaper and discounted ones at Old Navy’s website, but i never see Singapore on their mailing list! Sadded la. I got quite a few i wanted to buy from there. I think Old Navy is somewhat related to GAP and Banana Republic like how Dorothy Perkins and Topshop are related. But i dont think theres any Old Navy shops in Singapore right? Search online also never see any. How i hope they deliver here leh.

Got hanger inside leh. Not bad.

Ok, i think im getting a little too excited over this.

***

Its been 2 weeks since i started using Clinique’s products and voila, they are still working well for me.

Ok, this time round, the spot of light is from the reflection of the teevee. And see, i wore the same top so that can compare and contrast my face better.

Kidding la.

I took this picture on National Day. Guess i need not tell you the reason why this top liao right? Haha.

If you looking for facial products ah, can try Clinique. Really not bad. Oh ya, the Clinique person called to check on me (my face) one week after i bought the products. Good service leh.

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To those who cared, thanks a lot for the care and concern over the past week.

Im perfectly alright now and am back to normal already!

Thanks ya!

:)

Meet Ups

Well oh well! Im feeling much better already! Haha, so to further elevate my happy feelings, i shall do a post on all my meet ups with my darh-lings for the past 2 weeks.

1) 20-07-2008

Its a sandwich cum roast chicken cum fruits (fondue) cum ice-cream buffet! We have sandwich flavours like scrambled eggs, tuna, baked beans and nutella. And i found out something. I dont have to stand sweating over the stove while waiting for my chocolates to melt (when im trying to self-do a fondue). The best option available next is nutella! Tastes as delicious! Just that its not that watery as its supposed to be. After all that stomach activities, its time for brain activities – Scrabble, which i havent touched on for a very long time.

2) 22-07-2008

Met up with ms shoot for dinner at Coffee Club at Millenia Walk. Very nice environment there and so not crowded at all. Had strawberry soda pop or something and my favourite slipper lobster linguine. After that, headed over to Changing Appetite for dessert. I decided that i prefer cookie monster mudpie over frankenstein mudpie already.

3) 23-07-2008

Butts came over for dinner. We were all like – finally. Because we’ve been saying it since i moved and only doing it today. LOL.

There is this photo of us taken in year 2003 (graduation day) which i put on display on my shelf.

PS: Btw butts, it was there 5 years ago when i first moved right in, ok. HAHAHA.

There - this is us, year 2003. Photo still well preserved in the photoframe.

And so, we decided to do a year 2008 (exact similar poses) one. Took alot of attempts to do it. Poses not right, hands being blocked and so on. But we were so satisfied with the final one.

 

This is one of the first few taken. Saw the orb spot of light behind? We freaked out while trying to find out what it was. I thought it was a moon at first =X

Then we decided to take another one to see if the same thing is happening.

Nothing =X

Anyways, the picture below is the final one that we liked and is the perfect replica of the one in 2003.

Year 2008.

Im going to buy another photoframe and place it beside the 2003 one =)

I dont take alcohol (cause i dont really like it and i drive) but these smell sweet, nice and fruity. Maybe i can try some next time.

Its mahjong time! We only know how to play the basics. LOL.

We are perfect candidates for cam-whoring! LOL.

4) 24-07-2008

Met up with Helena again! Went to Sakae but i didnt take the photos of the sushi (is the plural of sushi ’sushis’?).

But i did take the soup!

Yes, its gossipy time again! LOL. We also talked about taking a picture together but forgot all about it until she messaged me about it after we reached home. Haha.

5) 26-07-2008

Met up with Aiqi, Wenru, Jeremiah, Winston, Dixon and Vanessa for lunchie at Paragon at Spageddies.

We shared pizzas, salad and pastas! Damn nice pizzas they have there. Must try!

Thank you all for the gift!

6) 29-07-2008

Its a shopping day! Met up with Xiao Leng(3) aka Small Cold at Parkway. Because of a miscommunication, we reached there starving and felt like we could eat a horse. No, horses. LOL. We settled for Jack’s Place! 

So we went round (its really round) the whole shopping centre, itching to spend money. And im the one who spent the most lor hor Small Cold? LOL.

My most expensive buys of the day:

250GB harddisk. Costs me $100 plus (on the higher end). Its a beauty! Super slim somemore. My current 40GB one is triple its size.

Clinique facial products ($141 for all 3). I think they can actually last pretty long. Was told by the lady that the moisturizer can last me 6 months. I’ll tell you if it does after 5 months and 3 weeks ya? LOL.

You sit there and the person will ask you a series of questions. After all are asked, she gives you the combination most suitable for your skin. I have an oily T-Zone, but dehydrated cheeks.

Till date, have been using it for about a week already and i must say it really works well for me! Too long for me to go into how good it was compared to what i was using and blah blah but can feel the difference la.

Free gifts! Pretty pouch isnt it? (Actually we were attracted to the pouch first, before the products =X) We’re crazy over pretty pouches!

Everywhere we went, especially in Jack’s Place and Isetan, we were talking and laughing so loudly that i think people think we are mad.

Anyway, we really really walked alot that day. Sore back and legs at the end of it. Not to mention my good auntie was here to add on more of it =X

Its also my maid’s birthday that day! So we bought her a cake!

   

Very nice cake. Just that i dont like the raisins in it at all.

7) 30-07-2008

Its crabbing session with butt again! But because we were both feeling bloated caused by the you-know-what, we forced ourselves tried to finish up everything that we’ve ordered.

You tiao with fish fillings, sweet and sour fish and salad prawns! Yum!

Chilli crab.

Sedap la.

Honeydew sago.

8) 03-08-2008

Went fot lunch at Marina’s.

I so damn missed my hot and cold ramen.

Woolala!

The last picture you see, is something that i’ve always wanted to order when i go there but it has beef in it. I can eat beef (outside of home only) but i’ve never really touched beef ever before, since i was young. The last time i went, we requested for it to be without beef, but we were turned down. We decided to try and order this time round and yeah, we got it without beef. I was right – it was super nice!

After that is dessert at Cafe Cartel!

8 scoops of ice-cream with cookies.

I flew up to the sky after eating this. LOL.

My face is glowing right? Haha later people say i ‘dont want face’ for typing that sentence so i better cancel it. But seriously i think its really better compared to the past. By the way, those white spots on my face is the result of flashlight from my camera la =X Oh and i think its time to do something to my hair, its getting a little unkempt.

I finally bought a photo album and photoframe today to keep all my hot from the oven freshly developed photos.

Hahaha!

I have super good memory right? Can remember the dates and so on as far back as 2 weeks ago.

Ok la, its just that my camera had dates on the pictures =X

Also, the end result of doing this post is - leaving me hungry in the middle of the night.

LOL.

I thoroughly enjoyed myself on the meet ups leh!

And i’ve got 3 more coming right up next week.

Cant wait!

=)

Helpless

When you are feeling internally bad/ having a bad mood, your day automatically turns bad.

When i was out just now, walk also can hit until the chair, bad traffic and all others.

Seriously, hormones, what are you trying to do to me?

Damn it.

If theres a pit in front of me,

i’ll just jump right in.

Shitty

Im in the sea of problems.

I can just go burst a dam.

Shitty is exactly what im feeling right now.